1. |
Implement Of Freedom
03:37
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I've lost my voice
I'm losing my voice again
The light is brighter than my pupils can withstand
I close my eyes
And see that old yellow dress
The one I wore when dreams were more like waking life
To speak for you
To do what you ask me to
Until the dancer cannot dance
Without looking in the mirror
Oh I used to use my body
As an implement of freedom
I've lost my voice
I'm losing my voice again
I think I did it to myself I don't know when
I spoke too loud
Or else I did not release
The quiet currents of abundance inside me
They're coming now
It's getting so hot in here
Will you take off all your clothes
Do you remember how it goes
Oh I used to use my body
As an implement of freedom
I used to dance
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2. |
Modern Life
04:45
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At nightÂ
Before sleep interferes
I fall in a backward slide homeÂ
The smell of eau de cologne
A drawer full of pillowcases
Yellow-stained, edged in lace
Difficult to open

Modern life is to remember
Following the arid stream
And to forget again, againÂ
Just before I fall, I leanÂ
At night
Amidst houses that hum
I listen for a sound to make sure
You are still alive because of others who have died

A werewolf passing in the hall
My mother's breasts each with a name
And all the shards of coastal blue lodged within our lungs

Modern life is to remember
Following the arid stream
And to forget again, againÂ
Just before I fall, I leanÂ
How do I wrestle through another night, how do I
Why does he ask me to bury him twice
When all the sisters of my mother rise, what if I
Can’t tell them how much I love them
Tell them how much I love them
Modern life is to remember
Following the arid stream
And to forget again, againÂ
Just before I fall, I leanÂ
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3. |
To Belong
03:42
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Trying hard to give all
Of my attention to you
When I see succulent systems
Someone else’s garden
Trying hard to reply
To the weather’s invitation
In one place at one time
To be here, to be here
In one place at one time
To belong
Doggy walk, doggy style
Let me leash you and unleash you
Is it true that the mindless body
Cannot separate itself from time
I will stop, I will reconfigure
This broken moment into a masterpiece
In one place at one time
To be here, to be here
In one place at one time
To belong
You are my protector
You are my home
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4. |
Take Me There
04:44
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Exactly where I left it
In this damp corner
On this green earth
An object of personal value
Imagine a place
Where nothing has changed
Traversing the fence
One fallow field to the next
Take me there
Private pleasure, uncanny sanctuary
Home is home is home
Private pleasure, uncanny sanctuary
The fields are all sand
I’m aging in reverse
The river slick with oil
My dirty face, my dirty hands
If nothing can be changed
An emptiness in me
Each time we cross the desert
And sun our skin beside the sea
Take me there
Private pleasure, uncanny sanctuary
Home is home is home
Private pleasure, uncanny sanctuary
You told me to be patient
I told you I cannot
You told me life is long
I told you I am measuring the time
It will take to arrive
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5. |
Back To The Sea
04:35
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Yesterday walking home
From the cemetery
Jobless with a pain in my back
The sky opened wide and flat
Impossible hues of blue and black
I smelled the chlorinated fountain
A smear of sunscreen
On the skin of a woman
Passing by
Back to the sea
My middle body
The depth of dreams
The jagged edge of memory
Night-flowering jasmine buds
Opening as the evening comes
I took a picture for you
Standing against a wall of stone
This is the time when the seagulls shout
Hungry like me and full of doubt
I am an ancient creature
Bones of a fish with mammal blood
Back to the sea
My middle body
The depth of dreams
The jagged edge of memory
I want to be with you
But I can only look at the moon
In the sky that we share
Pulling me back, pulling me
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6. |
Looking For Juliet
04:30
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She screamed when I shaved my legs
You did it
Despite our differences
I loved her
Hallucinations in the night
We stood beside Ramses
That tear in your hand
Are you still playing the piano?
Looking I’m looking for Juliet
I haven’t found her yet
Does she know I’m looking for her
Juliet, I won’t forget you
That summer at the swimming pool
Bodies in the water, bodies in the water
I wanted only to be with you
Write me a letter, write me a letter
Hallucinations in the night
We stood beside Ramses
That tear in your hand
Are you still playing the piano?
Looking I’m looking for Juliet
I haven’t found her yet
Does she know I’m looking for her
Juliet, I won’t forget you
Animals under your bed
Do you still know all the words
Their scraping and their scuffling
Cannot be unheard
Tried to make my hands obey
Wild and unwilling
When you loosened your grip
I loosened mine
Juliet, I won’t forget you
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7. |
Good Not Great
05:23
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You are a selfish man, a great man
With a wife of so many years
Can I last that long as a woman
To be good, not great, not enough
Somebody told me once that I am like a snake
With a poisonous tongue and secret intentions
We are entering the season of self-control
Dress well for the weather and always stand together
Good not great
To be good, not great
Is it enough, not always enough
If I could take away my vision and my sex
Become human being, nothing else
Could I live like you or other than you
To be good, not great, not enough
Somebody asked me once, what is it that you do?
Well I dance in the dark asking Medusa for direction
We are entering the season of tragedies
Beware of fatal flaws and do not pander to village applause
Good not great
To be good, not great
Is it enough, not always enough
Youssef fell in love with the whitest of his sheep
The one he called his bride
And then they killed his sister
Militiamen of a different religion
While her daughter hid in the basement
She was the only one who survived
Is she a good girl now, is she?
Still cowering inside
Good not great
To be good, not great
Is it enough, not always enough
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8. |
Distance Is Real
04:14
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On the beach at night
Write it down, you said
Distance is real, distance is real
When I left my country
I hated myself
Distance is real, distance is real
I am happier now on the planet we share
No more starving expanses
Or starless somewheres
From inside of the dome
With my feet in the sand
I can see you at home
Watching television
How incessant the ocean
Assuages my unease
Distance is real, distance is real
I am farther from you
Than I wanted to be
Distance is real, distance is real
Gravitational waves are a measure of how
We are coming and going
Hold on to me now
From inside of the dome
With my palms to the sky
I am sinking so slowly
It’s making me high
I will always love you
I will always love you
Hold that tremolo
So bombastic and true
I will always love you
I will always love you
Oh, she sang it so fine
Ever amaranthine
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For Now London, UK
For Now is the experimental pop project of Zeina Nasr.
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